Today I lost myself to the tale of LOVELESS. You probably haven't heard of it. It's from a video game (FFVII:Crisis Core, on PSP). I kind of wish it were a proper story; I feel as though it has a lot of potential. Three friends looking for the greatest treasure in the world. One gets lost along the way. One must sacrifice the last. The whole tale is rather fascinating, in my opinion, but I guess unless you're are very familiar with it then it doesn't mean much.
I didn't chat with him as much today. He had a busy day travelling and meeting with friends. It was funny, when he got back around 10:45pm-ish he immediately wanted to start chatting, and then when 2am rolled around he didn't want to head our separate ways. He even sent me virtual flowers. Ok, so a picture of flowers, with the comment "Better if they were physical flowers, but this'll have to do for now". I want to find that charming, attractive, or dare I say cute. But the fear is kicking in. Fear of getting attached only to have him disappear from my life like the rest of them, one of whom disappeared quite literally. Fear of getting close only to have him hate me out of nowhere like all of my friends inevitably seem to do. Fear of actually being optimistic and hopeful, because inevitably I get devastated. I want to bring up the subject with him, but... I guess the fear is in the way. I did notice, though, he started making these comments after I mentioned my most recent failed attempt at dating.
I stopped by a book store today and picked up an interesting looking book. "Kill Baxter", by Charlie Human. I think it's a sequel, but they didn't have the first one. That won't stop me! haha. I'm a couple chapters in already and am enjoying the main character's voice. Sarcastic and bitter, with a hint of jaded, talking about how he saves the world, and no one cares. Not a single person has even said thanks. The setup so far is intriguing, and I look forward to reading more.
I also obtained a tiny desktop terrarium. It's nothing fancy, but I thought it was cute. I have been looking for a plant to grow on my sill, but since I never get direct sunlight nothing much will grow. A terrarium seemed rather promising, plus the woodland creatures are cute.

I spent some time with Dragon Age girl today. She wanted to hang out, so she went with me to the bookstore, then played Witcher 3 on my PS4 for a bit. It was nice to actually interact with someone in person for a bit, even if she only ever seems to want to talk about Dragon Age.
Anyway, that was my day in a nutshell. I'm rather tired, and once again up 4 hours later than planned. Tomorrow I will definitely get to bed on time!
-N.E.