We're walking into a rising wind.

2017-05-21 23:49
nf793: (coheed)
It is Sunday night, once again. I almost forgot to post! I don't have too much to talk about, but then when has that ever stopped me from rambling before?

I moved back home May 12. Since then, I have accomplished a fair amount of things around the house and yard. I weeded almost all of the flowerbeds and landscaped areas. I helped install a gutter system on our front porch roof. I rearranged the trail cameras (three times) and threw bird/squirrel/deer feed (three times). I rearranged and reorganized the playroom , where all of my games, systems, dvds, board games, etc are all kept. I opened the pool and hot tub and got them well on their way to being swim-ready. I planted strawberry roots, baby sugar watermelons, and cucumbers (the only things that have sprouted yet are the cucmbers). I learned how the filter and heating system works for the pool and hot tub. I built several pieces of furniture for the playroom now that I am actually residing here and need furniture.

I'm sure I missed at least something, ut there is what I can think of at the moment.

I found out last weekend that what I thought was a sinus infection was, in fact, strep throat, so that's been fun. I also may be allergic to half of the plants growing in the woods on our property. I never had to deal with allergies until last spring, because I am apparently allergic to half of New Jersey. I guess I stayed there too long and now I am allergic to my own locale. Yaaaaay.

I have been lightly looking for work (I originally decided I would relax and wait until June 1, but I jumped the gun). So far, nothing. I absolutely despise third party job search sites. I can't even count the amount of times I would fill out a resume online, then take their stupid questionnaire and have them tell me they weren't sending my application because heaven forbid I not have every exact answer they were looking for. It's absolutely idiotic. I miss the days of walking in and handing in either a paper application or giving them your resume. Or even just emailing your resume. Too many places don't even do that anymore, they just let the third party site decide if they want to send your application or not. It's so aggravating!!! Anyway, I have been keeping an eye open for county agricultural jobs and anything at the Department of Natural Resources (they have an office nearby), but nothing has opened up for the last few months. Wish me luck that something opens up soon.

I have been more active on OkCupid. I would prefer to meet someone in person, but in this day and age that is far from likely. I don't mind the online dating thing, but I wish people actually communicated or were willing to meet in person. I'm not looking for hookups, and when I get to actually talking to someone for a bit, very rarely do they actually want to meet in person for coffee or anything. Most of the time, however, if I message a guy I won't get an answer. When one messages me, 19 times out of 20 it's just "hi" or something suggestive or asking if I want to hook up. Seriously? The least you could do is speak politely. This isn't Tinder. I'd also appreciate something to go off of for a conversation. There is one guy, though, who I have been talking to for a week now. We message about once per day, and they are pretty lengthy messages, just chatting and getting to know each other. He seems really nice, is literate and intelligent, and knows how to have an actual conversation. I strongly hinted at us grabbing coffee or something in my message I sent a little bit ago, so maybe he will get the hint and we can meet up and get to know each other that way! I'm happy because he is also fairly nearby (most tend to be over an hour). Keep your fingers crossed for me?

TV Shows: I finally made it all the way through Friends. It had the rare moment where I chuckled at something, but overall I don't feel any better or worse for having seen it. I don't really see why it's been so popular for so long. I started Lost again. This is the third time I have restarted the series. The furthest I have gotten was the beginning of Season 5. I would like to finish it this time, since I shouldn't have any major life changes that interrupt it again. I am still enjoying All Hail King Julien: Exiled, one episode at a time. I keep falling asleep after one episode, haha.

Gaming: One of my friends from school got himself a PS4 and picked up Destiny. I gifted him 3 months of PS+ to get him through the summer, and we have been playing together when we can. It is wonderful to have someone to play with again. It also gives me a chance to replay the missions again. I don't get any rewards, but I don't mind. It's fun to see someone going through it for the first time, and remember that feeling. I also am working through one of the free PS+ games for May. It is called Type:Rider. Basically, it is an educational game that teaches you the history behind some of the major fonts. It is set up as a puzzle platformer, and the platforms you roll on are made of the letters in the font that you are working on. You also play as a semi-colon. It's very unique, and a lot of fun! I am also learning quite a bit of cool trivia about the history of fonts. It is nice and laid back, too, so good for when you want to game, but don't want to stress. I like it!

Books: I am working my way through American Gods (Neil Gaiman). I am five and a half chapters in, and finding it interesting. It is not very fast paced, and there seems to be two different stories going on (one modern, one seems to be various points in history), but there is enough happening in the main story to keep me going. I am interested to see where it is heading.

Hope everyone has a whimsical week!
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Joining Fireteam in Orbit

2017-04-02 18:50
nf793: (coheed)
It's Sunday again! I thought this day would never come. Geez, it's been a long week. I'll skip most of the boring details.

My riding lesson on Tuesday was off. Everything was just off, and I can't pinpoint any cause. I almost fell off over a jump, too. We were going over an oxer (two jumps one right in front of the other, and you jump them both at once, if that makes sense. Here is a picture if you want to see what one looks like), and Kip took off way too far ahead, and landed way too far behind it. Instead of a nice half-circle of an arc, it was more like the long side of an oval. I ended up slamming my jaw into his neck, biting my lip in two places, losing one of my reins, losing one of my stirrups, and very nearly ate dirt. And of course Kip just cantered away like everything was going great. The rest of the lesson wasn't much better. My lesson on Thursday wasn't too great, either. I was supposed to ride Zanga, so I was looking forward to a straightforward, uneventful ride. While I was tacking up, I went to pick his feet and found out he had lost a shoe when he was turned out earlier in the day... What bothers me the most is that the working students are supposed to pick horse's feet when they bring them in from turnout. If they had, they would have noticed then that he was missing one and the whole mess of what happened next could have been avoided. I had to take him to the main barn to get his foot wrapped, which took time. Then I had to get barn management and my instructor, and we spent over 10 minutes trying to find a horse for me to ride. All of the horses had already gone, and only a very select few are allowed to go twice in one day. I ended up being put on Jebb, a pony that we lease from a summer camp. When I rode him at the start of last semester, he was really well behaved. He doesn't know much, but he would give his all and try, which is all I can ask. I haven't ridden him since September, and I can honestly tell you the horse I rode Thursday was not the same horse I rode back then. He fought me the whole ride, with his head up in the air, very stiff and not bending, would run away at the trot instead of canter, and didn't relax for even one second the entire ride. Plus, I was fifteen minutes late. It's a shame that this pony came to us so willing and kind and over just a few months we have made him into a tense, misbehaving, avoidance-prone animal.

On Wednesday, I recieved a call about the Barn Maager position I applied for. I think the phone interview went decently, but I am not entirely sure that I am what they are looking for. Plus, the woman knows that I am still in school, due to finish in May, so I'm pretty sure she thinks I'm only around 20. No, sorry, I'm almost 25. She gave me the speech about how barn managers work long hours every day, don't really get benefits, have a high risk of injury, don't get vacations, etc. All stuff that I know. Why do I know this? Because, like it says on my resume, I have been in the industry virtually my entire life, and I have managed at barns before. I don't know, I like the job, it is right down the road, and it would be a decent job to start at, but I don't see myself staying there terribly long-term. I have also been looking around for more office-related work in the industry, since I think it would be nice to have a normal 9-5 job, which comes with more benefits (health insurance, dental, vision, etc, whereas most barn jobs don't offer any), and would provide normal hours, weekends off, and evenings free. Since I have been pretty much living out of my car for the past two years, living across 3 different states, I really want some stability and predictability for a little while.

Yesterday, I had a nice outing with Dragon Age Girl. We went to Dover Saddlery, where I picked up some new half chaps. We had lunch at this Italian joint in the same plaza as Dover. I absolutely love that restaurant! It is a bit pricey, but you get enough food to have an entire meal's worth of leftovers that is still delicious reheated. Plus, they have these softball-sized ice cream truffles that are to die for <3 Over this weekend, I have spent a lot of time with my little group of almost-friends. I have to say, it has been nice having company and people around. I don't care for the drama that comes along with it, I just like the company when a certain few drama-creating brats aren't around.

Gaming: I played FFXV:Episode Gladiolus a couple of times. I enjoyed how they wrapped so much story into just a couple few-minute long dialogue sections. I also liked that there are game modes to it, which means added replayability. I feel like it was pretty short, though, and focused more on Cor than it did on Gladio. Don't get me wrong, Cor is cool and all, but I was hoping to learn more about the King's Shield. All it really did was reiterate that Gladio is really good at beating things up, even though the Big Baddie kept saying he needed to have brains, too. I would have liked to see a few puzzles to show that he used his head and not just his muscles. That being said, I am looking forward to playing it some more and beating my times and scores.

I played some Horizon Zero Dawn the other day, when I was hanging out with the group of acquaintances. They actually wanted me to bring my PS4 over, and they all voted on watching me play Horizon. I found it pretty funny. They started getting really into it, too, voting on quests to do, dialogue options to pick, etc. It was really fun!

Destiny's latest and final event, the Age of Triumph, started on Tuesday! I have a love/hate relationship with Destiny, mostly because people suck. For the last few months I have been flying solo, though, which has been nice. The event, though, means grouping up with people for certain activities (because who really wants to take on the Challenge of Elders solo?), so I have been getting in touch with the Dames of Destiny (I joined a few years  ago because I kept running into too many guys who acted like shitheads and I wanted some fellow chick gamers to fight alongside), and I applied to join Safe Gamers. I am on Planet Destiny, too, but most people I have run with from there are very competitive, and I prefer to put enjoyment over scores. I spent a good chunk of Friday on the Destiny LFG board and was, for the most part, having a good, successful time. I ran into a few unpleasant idividuals that I peaced out on, but overall it was a successful day.

TV/Movies: I am close to giving up Gossip Girl and I think I have only finished three episodes. That's what, one a week on average? Painful. I don't like quitting shows, but I am just really not feeling it. I binged Stranger Things yesterday while I worked on my Warlock characte in Destiny. I thought it was good, but I'm not sure it's the "best thing ever" like so many people keep telling me. Maybe it's because it was just like tons of scifi movies I have already seen. I also watched the first season of Cooper Barret's Guide to Survivng Life. I started it when I used to have Hulu (rip Hulu's golden years), but didn't get to finish it. It is pretty funny, and a decent show to watch.

Anyone have any suggestions of shows or movies that I should see on Netflix?
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Another Week

2017-03-27 00:29
nf793: (coheed)
I feel like a lot has happened in the past week, but when I think of everything, it really wasn't that much.

( I had a bad day, ok? Mostly venting. )
In more optimistic news, I applied for a job! It is a Barn Manager position at the barn where I first learned to ride when I was 7 years old. I did a presentation on the facility for one of my classes last spring, too. I sent in my cover letter and resume, and the barn owner replied to say that she was going to try to call me soon. She and her daughter are at the Carolina International Horse Trial this weekend, though, so I don't expect to hear from her until later this coming week. I hope she considers me. I am a little worried, though, because I don't graduate until May and the job posting says it is "available immediately". The woman does know, though, what I am going to school for, and she has had riders from her stable graduate from here before. The barn is also a few minutes away from my house, which would make commute easy, and I could save money living at home for a while and paying off some debt. Cross your fingers for me!

TV Shows/Movies: I have watched a couple movies this week. I watched Coraline and was rather unimpressed. I remember not caring for the book, but usually I enjoy Tim Burton's stop motion movies. This just didn't seem on par with his other works. I also watched Pete's Dragon, the 2016 remake, and was more annoyed by it than anything. It was ok, but I felt the story was missing a few steps. I don't remember the original movie, since I haven't watched it since I was probably four, but I do remember Elliot looked way different too. I get wanting to make it a more realistc dragon, but didn't Elliot talk, too? Oh, I do remember some o the songs from the original, and was kind of sad that they didn't keep them. I was also a little annoyed by the not-very-subtle "deforestation is bad" message they hid, but I could let that slide. I guess it was an ok movie, but probably not one I will choose to watch again on my own.

Did I mention I finished One Tree Hill? I started Gossip Girl. Not sure if I will keep with it, but I will give it a few episodes. I also started Voltron Legendary Defender, on Draco's recommendation, and I have to admit I am really enjoying it. I don't usually care for the whole giant cartoon robots thing, but I am enjoying the dialogue and character interaction. Originally, it was going to be my "I can't sleep so I will watch this cartoon til I fall asleep" show, but I was getting too invested, so now it is another show to watch. My insomnia show is now All Hail King Julien, and it is craking me up. I never really liked the Madagascar movies. I tried to like the Penguins of Madagascar show and movies, but still couldn't get too into it. This spin-off, however, is fantastic. It's almost too amusing for me to watch when I am trying to sleep. Almost. But I am running out of shows that fit that niche, so this one works for now. Regarding Supernatural, I just finished up S7:E21, and I am really not caring at all for anything anymore. The characters are played out, they keep all the wrong charactrs around, they keep writing themselves into a corner only to suddenly have some new thing show up out of nowhere to save them... Plus, I'm 21 episodes into this season, but I feel like they have only had enough actual material for maybe 4. It really feels like next to nothing is going on. But! I told myself I was going to try to make it all the way through every episode on netflix to get caught up, so I will keep pushing forward.

Gaming: I have some big gaming news! I finished the storyline in Horizon Zero Dawn! And a couple nights later I got the platinum trophy for getting every trophy in the game!!! I'm so proud of myself, it is the first game I have achieved platinum in. I still have to finish collecting all of the logs hidden around the world, but once I do that I will have officially done and found everything in the game there is to find and do! The scene after the credits makes me wonder if there will be a sequel, since you defeat the evil computer program, but you can't eactly delete him with your little sphere, not that I'm sure the thought ever crossed Aloy's mind. Her culture is pretty much "stab it and if it stops moving it's dead for good." I spent some time reading some of the lore from the collectibles, and I am in love with the writing. The story made me a bit nervous because it's one of those "almost too realistic" scenarios, but they used it well and eventually it created more hope than dread. I was glad that the name of the game finally made sense, since it really isn't even mentioned until most of the way through the main story. I read most of the ancient lore, but I still need to read the more recent lore about the tribes. A lot of that is in the logs that I still need to hunt down.

Hope everyone has a great week!
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Extended Break

2017-03-18 20:24
nf793: (coheed)
Missed a week, I know. I can assure you that nothing terribly thrilling has happened in my little corner of the globe. My last week of classes before break was average, though my last riding class was a lot of fun. I was the only one who showed up, so it was a private riding lesson. I was on Kip, who is very well behaved and well mannered, even if we don't quite communicate well (long story short, we are both crooked, which makes us go sideways a lot). My instructor worked a lot on my lower leg position and strengthening, then we had some fun with music. She put on the Game of Thrones theme and had me cnter around. The goal was to get my horse to canter to the beat, and I managed to accomplish it by the end. It was so much fun! I was exhausted by the end, but it was very much worth it.

I have been on spring break since two thursdays ago. I go back to school tomorrow. I really don't want to. It's been so peaceful and uneventful this past week and a half. No elephants living above me, no roommates filling the air with nauseating smells, no annoying children calling me to complain about each other... I'd say it was close to Heaven, but I would be lying. Living with the family has its own set of problems. These problems, however, are more familiar and I have learned how to cope over the years, so I will take it over the school situation.

We moved into this house two summers ago, less than a week before I moved for school. My belongings are still in boxes from the move, because I have not stayed here for more than 2 consecutive weeks since then. Since I will be moving back in come May, I started trying to at least sort my boxes and tidy up what everyone else has dumped into my closets over the years. Apparently my rooms have become storage for things no one knew where to put... Last I checked, we had a guest room, so I don't know why they didn't put this stuff there. I have very little furniture, and 2 rooms to fill. When we moved, I was given a bedroom that is half of a jack-and-jill thing, so there is a bathroom connecting my two rooms, if that makes sense. The second room is more of an entertainment room, and where I spend most of my time. It has my computer, all of my game systems and games, and all of the DVDs I have. I have some books, but only one bookshelf. I am hoping to get more shelving for in there, and at least a night stand for my bedroom when I finally move in. Really, the second room is mostly for my gliders to play in. Since I can't take them to school with me, Mother has been caring for them for me, and that is the one room in the house that they are allowed to run free in. I managed to glider-proof it, but I still want to make it more glider fiendly when I move in, and add platforms and stuff for them higher up. Right now they are mostly stuck on the floor... not a natural place for tree-dwelling ceatures. Decided I will also be donating quite a bit of my wardrobe to GoodWill in May. Most of it either doesn't fit or I don't want to keep it. I really would like to overhaul my wardrobe entirely once I get a job. Maybe get a new shirt or two per week for a few weeks until I have more clothes I will actually wear. Most of my wardrobe in my closet is stuff I have had since high school. I graduated seven years ago...

Gaming: Between bouts of cleaning and organizing, I have managed to get in a fair bit of gaming. Since I have had my desktop for a bit, I sarted Stardew Valley on Steam. I really enjoy farming games. I know, I'm a loser. But at least I am a happy loser. I got a fair bit into it, but decided to set it aside until May because it requires a fair bit of note-taking on my end and I will probably forget what I'm doing by then and will have to start over. I have also been playing Horizon: Zero Dawn and am truly, madly, deeply in love. The game is absolutely gorgeous! Don't believe me? Check out my media tab in my gaming twitter: https://twitter.com/Gamerfly793/media No spoilers, don't worry. I have managed to get just about every collectible, and have finished most side quests. I think that I am probably 3/4 through the main storyline, but I don't want to look it up to find out because I don't want to find spoilers. I will say that the story is frightening, but very intriguing. It is scary-close to reality, but also provides hope in a way? I know that doesn't make sense, but if you play the game it does. I keep getting lost on purpose just to find places to take photos of the gorgeous landscape. I am also loving the main character, too. They gave her a believable and unique personality, not the usual heroine stereotypes where she is either upbeat and high-strung, or all serious. She is humorous and about what you would expect form a 19 year old who was raised an outcast by a very caring father figure. It has led to some amusing bits of dialogue with a certain male character.
For the record, Erend is toooooootally hitting on Aloy. She has just never encountered flirting before, so her reaction is highly entertaining. He is not the only one, either, but he is the most recurring and persistent. ......... Ishipit.

TV Shows: I managed to get a few more seasons into One Tree Hill. Once Lucas and Peyton disappeared, the show got kind of weird. Not bad, necessarily, it just feels VERY different. Plus, they keep adding in these huge dramatic events (characters getting shot by a psycho stalker, someone dramatically drowning then being brought back to life, etc), and the events take up an entire episode, then are never referenced again. Not one. Like, in this one episode a character drowns to save her best friend's son during this hurricane-like storm, but her fiancee brings her back. The next episode starts with her waking up drunk after her bachelorette party and the entire episode is a parody of The Hangover. Oh, and there was this kid who got a massive concussion and was essentially as good as dead, but the next episode he was A-OK and his usual annoying self. I don't know, I guess I just wish it were more consistent.

I also got further with Supernatural. I think I finally left the whole Angels/Demons arc in the dust, but now they are going on and on about "the Leviathans". I know I'm a bit rusty on my Christian mythology, but I thought there was only THE Leviathan. Not multiple, just one. My friend also stated that this is by far the most annoying and boring season of all of them. I am 10 episodes in and I have to agree. I feel like nothing has really happened, aside from them killing off one of the best characters in the entire series. His death was dumb, anyway. I am really not happy with how they did that entire episode... I texted my friend when the character died and ranted, and he simply said "Oh just wait." Great.

Anyway, I know this is a kind of short post, especially since I didn't post last week, but there you have the highlights. I'm not feeling especially chatty, mostly just brooding. I really don't want to go back. The next 7 weeks are going to be a whilrlwind of crazy, and I don't feel like going through it. Wish me luck...

Hope everyone has been doing wonderfully!
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Snow in Hollywood

2017-03-03 13:48
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Posting a little early, I know. I have something going on tomorrow that I plan to post about, that may take up an entire post on its own, so I thought I would post a little early.

The start of the week was just off. It was three days in a row of "those days". You know, the ones where you're dropping everything, running into stuff, words don't work right, and you can't seem to function properly. By Wednesday afternoon it was at least getting a little better. That day, after classes, a friend and I went to a hair salon and I finally got my hair cut! It was down past my shoulder blades and was becoming too much of a hassle to care for, so I have been wanting to get it cut. I decided to get it just about shoulder length (so I can still pull it back in a pony tail), with layers. I love the layered look.( Rambling about riding! )Gaming: I caved and preordered Horizon Zero Dawn a week before it dropped. I regret nothing. I have been keeping an eye on it since its first announcement, and was so excited to play. It definitely did not let me down. I have put in just under three hours so far, because I have been busy working on my senior thesis, and I love it. The setting is pretty large, and looks gorgeous. The enemies are unique and really cool, and their AI is really interesting and advanced compared to most enemy AIs I have seen in games. I will say that so far I'm not overly impressed with any of the characters, but I am also not very far in the main storyline at all yet, so that may very well change. I love the unique concept and the combination of technology with the stone age. I like the simple crafting system that you can access on the go (it makes encounters so much nicer). And I am so excited to see where the game goes! Oh, and I think my favorite thing so far is photo mode! You can hide your character, change brightness, time of day, add filters, and so much more! When I game, I love to take screenshots of landscapes, and I can see myself abusing the hell out of photo mode and taking way too many pictures, hahaha. If you want to see the game for yourself, you can watch my playthrough of the beginning of the game here!

Wow... I don't think I have much more to say. In regards of tv shows, I have watched some more One Tree Hill and Supernatural. I started Wakfu and am only a couple episodes in. My thesis has been taking up almost all of my free time, so I haven't been able to do much of any reading or gaming. Tomorrow is the annual Random House Book Fair! I am pretty excited! I go almost every year. I plan to post about it this weekend!

Hope everyone is having an awesome week!
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Of Wine and Spirits

2017-02-19 23:55
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It's been a long week. Not bad, just long. The beginning of the week went by normally, without much to note. The excitement was all over the weekend.

On Thursday after classes, I went home for the weekend. It's about a four hour drive, provided weather and traffic are agreeable. I usually stop at a gas station around the halfway mark where the regular employees now know me on a first name basis, haha. I made it back around 9 that night, and was able to get to sleep at a decent time and even got to sleep in Friday morning. It's amazing how much better one can sleep when their roommates aren't blazing in the living room and the upstairs neighbors don't decide to have an ugly breakup at 2 in the morning. I won't miss this. At least on Friday I was able to get a little bit of work done for my thesis. Friday evening I went out to dinner with my parents. I think this was the first dinner with the three of us where no one shouted or argued or complained about the food or anything... It was a nice outing. After dinner we went to see the Lego Batman movie. It was awesome!!! I'm not really into the whole superhero thing, but I absolutely love the humor in the Lego movies. We were all laughing the whole way through. I definitely recommend it if you liked the Lego Movie, whether you care for superheroes or not.

Friday, I met up with my best guy friend (let's call him Draco) for lunch. We went to Chilies, which seems to be our thing lately when I am in town. He filled me in on the latest with his relationship (his girlfriend is a couple states away, but might be visiting in a couple of months!), and I filled him in on how my most recent one ended and the aftermath. Then we got to talking about past relationships and I had a heartwrenching realization. My most serious relationship, I was engaged to this guy (let's call him Cloud). He was in the army, and long story short, the distance coupled with the fact that he wanted to party in the present instead of save for our future, was what made me end things. When we got engaged, we wanted to wait until he was out of the military to get married. It hit me when Draco and I were talking that this summer was the summer when Cloud and I were planning to get married... Not to mention, we officially became a couple on Valentine's Day of that year. So 5 years ago Tuesday... and then this summer... It's just been scratching at the back of my thoughts all week, especially since Cloud's best friend (Dante, who also became one of my best friends), recently hit me up and wanted to be friends again. When Cloud and I broke apart, I backed up out of all of the relationships I'd made with people he knew, out of respect for him. Dante and everyone else understood. Now 5 years later Dante hits me up like no time has passed and we are still best friends... It's been screwing with me. I just wish I could forget all of it. I don't regret it, but it does stop me at times from being able to move forward.

Anyway, after Draco and I grabbed lunch, we went to his friends' apartment. He is going to be moving in with them tomorrow (Monday) and we were helping to clean up the bedroom that the other friend had just moved out of. That explanation probably makes no sense. 3 of them were living together, and one moved out last week, so Draco is moving in now. We went to help clean up because the guy who moved out was SUPER disgusting, and it's a bunch of guys, so they wanted a chick to help. I'm excited to visit in a few weeks and see if the place still resembles anything close to "tidy".

Saturday night my parents threw a small get-together called a "wine-in". For those who don't know, it's pretty much an excuse to get out of the house in the winter, drink wine, and enjoy the company of friends. There weren't many people, but the ones who came were really great. I have never been big into wine, but I did learn a fair amount and even found one I like! I also had the chance to talk with my aunt and uncle. I love them, but only in the last year or two have they finally started to see me as an adult, not just their little kid niece. We talked about my little cousin's gerbils, my other little cousin's existential crisis, and they even asked me for job advice since my uncle is considering trying work at the warehouse that I used to work at. Overall, it was a really nice evening!

Drove back up today (Sunday) and found out from Dragon Age Girl that I missed a lot of drama over the weekend. Kind of glad I missed it. Something about one guy pretty much PMSing and being an ass, the Tweedles' mother visiting and laying into them for living in filth (which they do, they never clean and it's disgusting), and Tweedledee getting a call from the CDC telling her that she needs to get her pet rats tested for some super contagious disease going around. Really glad I passed all that up for an enjoyable, if unproductive, weekend.

TV/Movies: I finished Glee last weekend, and have replaced it with One Tree Hill. I am on season 2 episode 14 already. It's not terribly exciting, but it is an ok drama for background noise. Plus, the cast isn't too bad to look at, either. I haven't made much progress on Supernatural, as I haven't had much time to actually pay attention to a show.

Gaming: In gaming news, I haven't played too much lately. I did go bumming arouns space a bit, which was nice. I have really missed Destiny, and since I made the move and took Church off of my friends list, space has been much more open and inviting. Sure, it sucks not having a fireteam to do strikes, nightfall, and raids, but I love the game for the worlds and lore, so I don't mind. While I was home I even played some Age of Mythology. I decided to start playing through the New Atlantis campaign, which has been pretty cool so far. I have never played the extra campaigns in AOM before, just the main one.
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Learning to Breathe... Literally.

2017-02-12 16:01
nf793: (coheed)
Got myself a massive head cold. I am on day 4: the beginning of the great tissue massacre. Here is hoping this cold goes away quickly x.x

The beginning of the week was pretty uneventful. At least that's what I'm going with. This cold is making it hard to remember what I even did that long ago. Wednesday, according to my fun little calendar, was "Extraterrestrial Culture Day", so I celebrated after classes by sitting outside enjoying the nice weather and writing more of my story. I don't get to write much lately, especially since this is my last semester, so it was nice to take some time and work on it.

Wednesday night they preemptively cancelled everything for Thursday. We ended up getting only a couple inches that stuck, since the weather the day before was so warm. Since it snowed the temp hadn't gone above 40 degrees. I really don't care for winter. If I could find a climate where the temp was 50-75 year-round, I would never leave. Anyway, since I had the day off I tried to get more research and planning done for my thesis. My acquiantances pestered me throughout the day, but I managed to get at least a little bit read. Friday was much the same.
( Mini rant about spoiled adult children )
Saturday was an awesome day. I went to visit my best friend again. The plus side of being up here for school is that now she is only an hour away, so I can visit her once in a while. We went to a mall near her, and wandered around. I learned about art markers and had fun coloring with gel pens (I'm not an art person, but I am easily amused by gel pens~). We went to Barnes and Noble and I got two new books (Apocalypse Now Now (Human) and The Light Fantastic (Pratchett)) and a mini desk aquarium.



At Hot Topic I picked up a couple of the mystery box figures. I got a Gir plushie keychain, a cute little Deadpool statue, and an adorable little comic Deadpool button. I'm pretty excited because they were all the ones that I wanted! I usually have really horrible luck with the mystery boxes. I also got myself comfy Assassin's Creed guys pajama pants and a Lego Batman tank that says "GO TEAM ME" that I very much enjoyed. I'm hoping to see the Lego Batman movie soon. We wrapped up the mall trip with a stop in the amazingly wonderful candy store, where I got myself some snacks. After the mall we hung out and chatted for a while. She even showed me the demo for For Honor, and it looks pretty fun!

TV Shows/Movies: During Wednesday and Thursday I rewatched most of Firefly, my favorite show. I don't think I will ever get tired of it. I am also just about finished with Glee. I am on season 6 episode 12. It's getting a little better, but less realistic with every "plot twist". I also kind of miss them doing classic songs more often. I feel like now it's once every 4 episodes or so. On the Supernatural front, I am on season 6, episode 2. Making slow, but steady progress.

In terms of movies, the only notable one I have watched recently was Kingsglaive. I finally got around to watching it and... *dreamy sigh* I have a new favorite FFXV character. Sorry Gladio, but Nyx... yep. I refuse to believe what happened to him happened. Nope. He is out there somewhere being awesome. Shhhh don't tell me different.

Gaming: I haven't had much time this week to play, but I did spend a little time in Destiny. I miss being in space, and it was nice to bum around again. I don't have a fireteam anymore, which means the difficulty has been upped, but I don't mind. They must have changed some of the rules for drops, which is nice because it means I won't necessarily have to hop into LFG and raid a ton just to get better gear. I also spent some time in Thief at some point, but I can't remember if that was this week or last week. I am a couple chapters in and looking forward to continuing it.

Hope everyone had a great week!
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We'll Make It If You Believe

2017-02-05 21:06
nf793: (coheed)
It's been a long week. I'm starting to think 2017 will just not be my year.

I started research on my senior thesis. I have narrowed down my focus to the use of pZP/reZP to control the population of wild and feral horses in the American Midwest. So far I think it is pretty interesting. It works the same as a vaccine, but the end result is a temporary immunocontraceptive. In most cases, the effect is temporary and by the following year the mare is able to foal again. What I have found helpful and rather cool in my research is that this method has been used on white-tailed deer and African elephants for decades.

( It's been a long weekend. )

Also! I made the decision - nay, commitment! - to getting into better shape, including eating better. At school I can't eat very well. At all. But I am trying to make better choices when I can. For instance, I have been trying to eat salad for lunch once or twice a week instead of the usual hot dog (it's either one of those or a tuna sandwich). I have a lettuce intolerance, so I can't have salad very often, but once or twice a week seems ok so far. I have also downloaded the 30-Day Fitness Challenge app and have been keeping up with it. I'm only on Day 3, but I am really set on sticking with it and seeing how much progress I make by the end.

Gaming: I finally finished FFXV. In its place I have decided to focus on the Thief Remaster for PS4. I enjoy stealth games a lot, and so far this one is, in my opinion, rather easy. I have the difficulty set to normal, but I can still sneak up on enemies incredibly easily. The voice acting is good, individually, but it is very easy to tell that they never heard each other's lines or really recieved any context to them. I am mildly interested in the story so far, and am curious to see where it goes.

TV/Movies: I haven't seen any movies this week. I have been keeping up with Supernatural (I am on S5:E20), slowly but surely. I really feel like I am forcing myself to sit down and keep watching. I hope it gets better soon. I am also on Glee S5:E2. I am not liking it a ton anymore. I feel like after season 3 it started getting... preachy? It feels like it was shoving morals down my throat relevant only to the week that episode came out. I also have to say, I watched the school shooting episode and was frustrated. It is a sensitive subject to start with. For what they made the show to be, it was far too real and made no sense in the long run of the show. Nothing really changed after it. *spoilers* When Sue tried to give her fake explanation for what happened, I was begging for them to just stop, end the episode, and go back to what they were doing before. Then they made it worse when they gave the real reason. Who it was and why she did it made next to no snese to me. It was like they wanted to make a big statement, so they picked a sensitive topic, a side character of an arguably minority group, and gave her just a dumb shallow reason to bring a gun to school. Anyway, I'll try to stop here and not keep ranting about it. I rather enjoyed the first three seasons of the show. I have to say, though, that I didn't like how they stuck with the graduates after they left the school. The show is about the club, but when you spend over half of the episode on people in other places it takes time away from the original purpose of the show. Anyway, I enjoy it enough to keep watching, so watch I shall. I think there is only 6 seasons total, so I am close, anyway.
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Lead Sails (and a Paper Anchor)

2017-01-29 22:39
nf793: (coheed)
Ever feel like holding on to someone, knowing they're slipping away, but don't because you don't want to be seen as needy or clingy and end up chasing them away?

Well, I think I'm coming to terms. I'm not happy. Nowhere near, in all honesty. However, I am getting better adjusted to the quiet. It's a painful, lonely quiet, but it hurts less now that I have more things to do to fill my time. That's the plus side of the semester finally kicking in. I have to write my senior thesis paper this semester, which will take up plenty of my time and help me stay focused on something other than the silence.

We have had two weeks of classes already. My riding class is really small, with only 3 of us, which means more individual instruction. I am really happy about that. Our instructor also wants to give us horses that we enjoy riding, and has ideas for musical rides, drills, and creative jumping lessons. I am really interested to see what she comes up with. She seems like the type who will push us hard, but will cheer us on while doing so, which is rare to see in this competitive industry. As for my other classes, I am taking Fundamental Theories of Riding, Management of Equine Activities, Equine Nutrition, and Senior Seminar. Management is pretty dull. It's pretty much all about running hunter/jumper horse shows... It's like this school forgets there are more disciplines than that. Nutrition is pretty cool so far. THe other day we spent the entire class weighing every horse in the barn (all 96 of them). We were also assigned project horses for the semester. We will be doing a semester long small group project where we analyze the horse's health and create a feeding plan to get them to a proper weight and maintain it. My group is doing a horse that just arrived a couple weeks ago. His name is Leo ("A Midsummer Night's Dream"), and he is a gorgeous bay warmblood who is only 12 years old. He is a tad underweight at the moment, but fit, so our goal will be building up what muscle he has and maintaining his condition while packing a few more pounds on him.

Last semester, Dragon Age Girl adopted herself a freshman. Let's call her Lamb for now. For most of last semester, Lamb was very quiet and went to great lengths to avoid interactng with people. Towards the end of last semester, I officially brought her into my little group of mionions, as I like to think of them. They call themselves my ducklings, and now there are 3. Well, the poor unfortunate Lamb is stuck in a riding class with the Tweedles, and Tweedledum, specifically, has been aggravating her. Lamb, having no social skills and plenty of anxiety troubles, immediately demanded to her advisor that she get her scheduled switched. Trying to be a supportive older friend, I explained to her that in life she won't be able to pick everyone around her, and this university is a better place to learn to deal with people than out there in the real world. I offered her skills for dealing with them, because since I've known the two of them I have had to come up with plenty. She shot down every single one in favor of simply demanding to her advisor and to the department chair that she be allowed into other already filled classes just to get away from them. I'm sorry, honey, but the real world won't just move to oblige you because you don't like someone. Coping skills are vital to learn, and better now than later when your job and income depend on your interactions with others. Well, her advisor told her the exact same things that I did. I guess advice only matters when it comes from someone who is tenured. Or maybe it was because she realized her little tantrum would get her nowhere. She is now avoiding them like the plague when she isn't in class. The down side is that she has been messaging me an average of 14 messages an hour for the past week and a half since I gave her my google name. The reason I gave it to her, and I told her this flat out, was that it was the quickest way to get ahold of me if she needed a ride back from the barn after her riding lesson (she rides directly after I do and the shuttle doesn't always run that late). That was it. In case of emergency. Well, she has been abusing the ever-living hell out of it, messaging me to bitch and whine and complain about Tweedledum. Like, I get it, you don't like them. Fun fact: No one around here does. But we don't have a choice, so we cope, put up with what we have to, ignore the rest, and carry on with our lives. Besides, you asked me for advice, shot it so far down it downed in the Indian Ocean, and acted like a spoiled brat who thinks the world should bend to suit you. I don't like self-entitled brats. Get over yourself, learn to have an actual conversation instead of a 24/7 bitch session, and then try talking with me again. I like to converse when it goes both ways. I'm happy to give advice if you ask for it and I can. But I have better things to do than humor your petty childish whining. I'm not sorry.
TL;DR: This freshman is really getting on my nverves by constantly whining to me and thinking the world revolves around her.

Last weekend I was super excited because I got to see my best friend. I really needed to see her and relax with a friend for a while. I don't get to see her often, as we always seem to be a state away, but when I am at school she is only an hour away, so I can visit her once in a while for a day. We hung out and chatted for a bit. She is madly in love with Prompto (FFXV), so there was plenty of teasing~ (ilu and I will ship it for as long as I feel like it). We hit up an outdoor mall by her, which was a lot of fun. I picked up the book The Color of Magic (Pratchett), which is the first Discworld book. There was an awesome little candy store where I got more than I should have >.> I regret nothing when it comes to my candy store purchases. There was even a Peeps store! You know the marshmallow peeps? They had GIANT plushie bunny peeps, tons of marshmallow-y goodness, and Mike-and-Ikes galore. I picked myself up a super comfortable zip-up hoodie that says "Chillin with my Peeps" on it. Cliche, I know, but I have a secret love affair with peeps and I geeked pretty hard when I saw the store. Anyway, I had a ton of fun with my bestie and I am hoping to visit her again sometime soon.

Games: I haven't gamed too much lately. I've been trying to focus on schoolwork. I have played some FFXV though! The Moogle Chocobo Festival started on Mon Jan 23, and it is so freaking adorable!!! I managed to knock out all fo the quests and I have done all of the activities at least once on each difficulty. I want to grind some of them to get the chocobo racing trophies and buy the car decals and paint colors.

Books: I set aside The Ocean at the End of the Lane for a little while. I got to a lull that I was having trouble focusing through. Instead, I have started The Color of Magic (Pratchett). I have about 40 minutes between clsses on Mon/Wed, so I manage to knock out about 20 pages at a time between all of the interruptions. So far it is quirky, but nothing exciting yet. I have heard great things, though, so I plan to stick it out and see if I feel the same as others.

TV/Movies: I have made it to Supernatural S5:E13. Progress. I am definitely not as into it as I was in the first few seasons. I am trying hard to stick it out, but the writing makes it difficult. It realy did, in myopinion, lose a lot of its charm and what made it uniquie when they decided to go the Angels route with it. I have also been watching Glee, for something out of my usual genres. I have to admit, I went in with a lot of skepticism. Some of that skepticism was justified, it seems, but a lot of it was also proven wrong. Most of the actors have truly incredible voices. I am very impressed (It helps that they were all about a decade older than the characters that they portrayed). The show does get very "after school special" way too frequently. I'm on season 3 episode 14 and so far it has felt like every other episode gets in your face with a moral issue. I get it, television is a platform for moral issues, and it's a show for teens so go out there and accept yourself and be you. But there are plenty of shows who have managed to get the same message across without being so... overwritten.

That's the latest in my little fragment of the world. Hope everyone has a wonderfully lovely week!
-NF
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Long Time, No Chitchat

2017-01-15 23:41
nf793: (coheed)
Hey everyone!

A lot has happened. Sorry I never got around to posting about camp again. The rest of the year was a whirlwind after I got back, with too much to explain, so I'll just get to the more recent updates.

( What I'm up to )

( My latest gaming shenanigans )

( Tv/Movies )

( Literature! )

I think that's about it for now. I do plan to start posting a lot more now that things are quieting down. I have missed being here! I hope to get back to getting to know everyone again :)

-NF
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Round 2... FIGHT

2016-08-31 08:39
nf793: (coheed)
Back at school again. Fun, fun. Move-in was pretty relaxed, and I really like my room layout. Classes start today, so that will be... eh. My riding class was already cancelled due to not enough people, so the fun has already begun. I have decided, however, to approach this year with low stress and not much caring. I just want to roll with whatever and be done in May so that I can finally move on with my life. Not to mention avoid tons of health problems. Last semester it was the migraines. Over the summer my job put me on the brink of a heart attack. Good times. I just want to be done with this and get on to my life.

In happier news, I spent a good chunk of my week off with my boyfriend. I went to see Church Monday and Tuesday nights, then I was with him Friday evening to Sunday morning. He moved over the weekend, and his parents, sister, and 2 friends came to help, so that was... an experience. I was freaking out that morning before they got there, but I think - I hope- that I hid it well. His parents seemed pretty nice, and his sister was friendly. His friends were a comfort, because they reminded me a TON of my old group of guy friends.

In TV shows, lately I've been hooked on Lie To Me. I'm also excited because Animaniacs is on Netflix, so I plan to watch it here and there. I used to love that show when I was little.

In gaming news, I preordered Destiny: Rise of Iron. I need to prorder the Skyrim remaster and Dishonored 2. Then when the FF7 remake gets a date I need to preorder that, too. I'm going to go broke this gaming season. I already warned Church that my sould has belonged to Skyrim for years before I met him, so it's nothing personal if I disappear into it, haha.

Anyway, it's 8:30am on a Wednesday, and I'm getting really distracted and can't focus on anything. Guess I'll wrap up for now.

-NF
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Long Few Days

2016-03-13 00:09
nf793: (coheed)

Sorry for disappearing for a few days again. Woke up Wednesday with a numb arm and an overload of anxiety and panic about pretty much everything ever. Couldn't go to my morning class that day because of it. Managed to go to my Wed night class, though, and am glad I did. We reviewed for our midterm and got the questions for it. The midterm is just writing two short essays in class, and he already gave us the questions. On Thursday I was feeling better enough to go to my riding class. I rode Zanga, a dapple grey about 15.3hh (ish). He was very responsive and forward, a welcome change from Chester. He also loves to toss his head, so much so that we almost fell over a couple times because he just would not stop. I am supposed to be riding him again on Tuesday, and am looking forward to it. I had my Equine Facilities Management midterm that afternoon, and am pretty confident that I did well on it. That evening, Dragon Age Girl came over and we threw a pizza in the oven and even made a small cake! The Duncan Hines Perfect Size cakes are so delicious. Every one I have made so far has tasted amazing (except the icing, get a jar instead).

Friday I spent most of the day hanging around and studying for my history midterm. Today, Saturday, as my 4th and final practicum day for the semester. The weather was rather nice, in the high fifties all day. My project for the day was scrubbing feed pans in South Aisle (approximately 35 stalls/feed pans). They were absolutely disgusting and desperately needed it. I also did a bunch of handwalks (for rehab and retired horses) and thrush treatments in the afternoon. Overall, it was a nice day and a good way to wrap up my practicum days.

On the gaming front, I have recently started replaying Dishonored. I got the Definitive Edition on PS4 for pretty cheap. I have been replaying on Normal, aiming for the good ending. I plan to go for a nonlethal runthrough afterward, then a powerless runthrough after that. It is one of my top 5 favorite games, and has been there since it came out. I love everything about it, and am so excited that there is going to be a sequel. Between Dishonored 2 and Styx 2, I am going to be pretty busy later this year! I also found The Tale of Despereaux on DS and started playing it. It seems cute so far, but I'm a bit surprised by how different the story is. It is one of my all time favorite books, and why they would change it so much perplexes me.

In reading news, I have recently begun to read Watership Down (Richard Adams). A friend of mine loves it and is letting me borrow it over the next couple of weeks so that I can read it. So far it seems like a nice little story about rabbits. It reminds me a bit of Peter Rabbit, but with a little more grown up of a tone. I am interested to read more.

In tv shows, I finished Ugly Betty a few days ago. I was a bit unhappy with the ending, but I will take it. I liked the ending as it related to the show's beginning. For the most aprt, I didn't much care for season 3. Overall, however, I liked the show. Once I finished it I decided to try Finding Carter. I am not impressed at all with it, but then I expected as much. It is your typical teen drama with romances destroying friendships, drugs, teen rebellion, and teen pregnancy. I think the writing is actually pretty great, it is just not my type of show. I am not sure what I will watch next, but I only have 3 episodes left in season 2, so I need to decide soon.

Well, I've been up since 6am, and it is now past midnight. My back and feet both hurt tremendously and are telling me that I should get to bed, so I think I shall comply.

-N.E.

Update: 3:30am and I'm still up, courtesy of the drunken asshats on campus. Thanks for pissing outside my window instead of in the open field ten steps to your right. Thanks for having a screaming match with your now ex boyfriend and now ex side guy on the sidewalk outside. Thanks for informing the whole building your underage friend just scored another keg. Thanks for all of that and so much more. The whole building appreciates it. Now I suggest you leave because yes, I called security.

I fucking hate being surrounded by drunken children.

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Ugly Wednesday

2016-02-24 23:19
nf793: (coheed)
Another night, another update.

Today was long and unpleasant. Woke up feeling iffy. Felt incredibly nauseous off and on during my morning class. No idea why. Went away when I got back around 1, but only for about 2 hours. I managed to get some work done during that time, but when I tried to eat something small it hit again, and hard. Ended up emailing my history professor to let him know I wouldn't be in class tonight. I really don't like missing it, especially since it's the one I'm most concerned about, but I knew I wouldn't be able to make it through class. And on top of everything, there is a huge storm raging outside.

Spent quite a while just laying around and watching Ugly Betty. I admit, I binge shows. I prefer shows that are done and over, so I can watch start to finish and move on. I have been trying to find a half-hour sitcom on Hulu or Netflix that is at least hallfway interesting, but so far have come up pretty empty. Instead, I'm watching Ugly Betty, which is pretty amusing so far, I have to say. I prefer half hour shows, though, so I can watch them when I fall asleep without missing too much. If anyone knows any good shows on Hulu or Netflix, let me know! I'm always looking for recommendations.

Played a bit more Styx: Master of Shadows again tonight. I officially passed the halfway mark in the game... after like 20+ hours of gameplay, hahahahaha. I'm terrible at stealth and tend to get caught an awful lot. I also spend an absurd amount of time getting up to shenanigans, like hiding in pots, holding auctions for pots, and piling up my victims... I had a pile of 11 guards today. That's a new record for me!

Anyway, short post for a dull day. Hopefully whatever is going on with me is done by morning. I want to ride tomorrow!

-N.E.
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Lazy Tuesday

2016-02-24 00:08
nf793: (coheed)
All day I have been thinking it's Wednesday... My roommate decided to have loud company over, and they didn't seem to care about their noise level until I went out at 2am and asked them to keep it down. I think their friends keep forgetting that I've moved in, and it's not just them anymore. I don't have much of any complaints aside from their not-so-pleasant cooking, but I don't think it's terribly considerate to have loud company over until 2am on a school/work night. Some people actually have these things called morning classes... Either take it to the lounge or save it for the weekend, please, if you plan to keep things going after midnight.
( Rambling about my riding class )
( Rambling about my horse of the day, and my favorite at the barn )
After my lesson I was incredibly tired. I don't know why I was so tired today! I actually took a nap after my second class. I got back to campus at 3, ran out to the store real quick, came back, and napped for a solid 2 hours. I never nap. I don't know what was up. It was nice, though! I just feel like I didn't accomplish as much as I could have today. Which isn't true. I actually accomplished more than I planned to, once I woke back up. I got started on a little research for a paper due in April, and I did 2 versions of a barn layout due on thursday. Only one is due, I just couldn't decide which layout I preferred. I will make a final decision tomorrow.
( Styx sequel! )
Got so wrapped up in planning out my barn that before I knew it, it was 11:30! I aim for lights out at 11, so I'm glad I don't have class until 10:30 tomorrow.

Anyway... Overall, it was a good, if sleepy, day!

-N.E.
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No Story is Not Worth Hearing

2016-02-20 03:05
nf793: (coheed)
Trying to get into the habit of journaling every day. Today is far later than I'd like, by at least 4 hours, but I have my reason. Ok, so technically I guess I missed a day? I used to work 2nd shift in a warehouse; my day resets when I fall asleep.

My reason was that I was chatting with him. The guy I mentioned before. I really need a name for him... Yes, I give code names to guys. And everyone else. I'm pro-confidentiality. ... ish. Anyway, we were talking for over 7 hours, and didn't want to go. It's kind of funny, after writing about it, I started to wonder if maybe my feelings for him weren't really reciprocated, as though he just saw me as another friend to talk to. Now, however, I'm not so sure. I realized today that for the last few weeks he keeps dropping "if only we weren't so far away" lines. Tonight he dropped it at least 3 times. I want to believe there is some hope. I could do with some, I've never had a hope fulfilled, just destroyed. It would be a nice change of pace.

But I know better. Until I've been happily married for at least a few years, it's not going to happen. Always have a few back up plans for when your hope falls through. No, I don't have a back-up husband. Though I am starting to wonder if I should consider getting one... That's beside the point.

In other news, I started replaying FFVII:Crisis Core again on my PSP. I forgot how much I loved that game. I love everything about it, except for the combat gameplay. I can put up with it for everything else, though.

I thought I had more that I wanted to say, but I can't remember now. I am up way later than I intended (not complaining, though),  and am really tired, so maybe it will come back to me tomorrow.

-N.E.
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