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Trying to get into the habit of journaling every day. Today is far later than I'd like, by at least 4 hours, but I have my reason. Ok, so technically I guess I missed a day? I used to work 2nd shift in a warehouse; my day resets when I fall asleep.
My reason was that I was chatting with him. The guy I mentioned before. I really need a name for him... Yes, I give code names to guys. And everyone else. I'm pro-confidentiality. ... ish. Anyway, we were talking for over 7 hours, and didn't want to go. It's kind of funny, after writing about it, I started to wonder if maybe my feelings for him weren't really reciprocated, as though he just saw me as another friend to talk to. Now, however, I'm not so sure. I realized today that for the last few weeks he keeps dropping "if only we weren't so far away" lines. Tonight he dropped it at least 3 times. I want to believe there is some hope. I could do with some, I've never had a hope fulfilled, just destroyed. It would be a nice change of pace.
But I know better. Until I've been happily married for at least a few years, it's not going to happen. Always have a few back up plans for when your hope falls through. No, I don't have a back-up husband. Though I am starting to wonder if I should consider getting one... That's beside the point.
In other news, I started replaying FFVII:Crisis Core again on my PSP. I forgot how much I loved that game. I love everything about it, except for the combat gameplay. I can put up with it for everything else, though.
I thought I had more that I wanted to say, but I can't remember now. I am up way later than I intended (not complaining, though), and am really tired, so maybe it will come back to me tomorrow.
-N.E.
My reason was that I was chatting with him. The guy I mentioned before. I really need a name for him... Yes, I give code names to guys. And everyone else. I'm pro-confidentiality. ... ish. Anyway, we were talking for over 7 hours, and didn't want to go. It's kind of funny, after writing about it, I started to wonder if maybe my feelings for him weren't really reciprocated, as though he just saw me as another friend to talk to. Now, however, I'm not so sure. I realized today that for the last few weeks he keeps dropping "if only we weren't so far away" lines. Tonight he dropped it at least 3 times. I want to believe there is some hope. I could do with some, I've never had a hope fulfilled, just destroyed. It would be a nice change of pace.
But I know better. Until I've been happily married for at least a few years, it's not going to happen. Always have a few back up plans for when your hope falls through. No, I don't have a back-up husband. Though I am starting to wonder if I should consider getting one... That's beside the point.
In other news, I started replaying FFVII:Crisis Core again on my PSP. I forgot how much I loved that game. I love everything about it, except for the combat gameplay. I can put up with it for everything else, though.
I thought I had more that I wanted to say, but I can't remember now. I am up way later than I intended (not complaining, though), and am really tired, so maybe it will come back to me tomorrow.
-N.E.
